My son’s graduation photos were delivered and it’s another reminder that in a couple of short months, my youngest will graduate from high school. I’m the proud mother of 3 other high school graduates, and 2 have already graduated from post-secondary programs.
This year, I went back to school to study hypnotherapy. As my program has a short time left, and his graduation is nearing, I’ve been processing how much more my life will change as the last of my children goes out into the world to work and continue his education.
It frees up more of my time to build even more of a life for myself, yet after 26 years of being a mother, and being there for them, consciously raising them – there are things I need to let go of.
Sometimes it’s feelings of sadness because my life has revolved around what they needed for so long that at times I’ve felt lost as to what to do with more of the time I have for myself. Other times, I’m elated at what the future has in store for everyone. I enjoy watching them forge ahead with their lives and dreams along with adding significant others. Our family dinners are getting larger in number, and it’s such a blessing to watch them turn into fine young adults.
And see how easy it is to talk about them rather than myself? Putting myself first is a transition as I find myself slipping back into a mode of wanting to do things for others rather than putting what I need to do first.
Scheduling my days differently to take care of my needs first, going with a flow of what work I want to do, and going back to school have all helped to put the focus back onto me. My kids have been instrumental in this transition too since they’ve encouraged me to follow a career path where I can help people in the way I do best. I’ve got 3 books in the works, as well as a mindful movement business. I love everything I do, and I’m taking my time to figure out how best to put all my projects into the world rather than hurrying to do it because I’m trying to fit it in with being a mother.
I’ve also discovered some limiting beliefs about manifestation and my toxic relationship with money that I’ve come to release and I feel much better about moving forward with my life.
Working on the relationship I have with myself is so key for me right now. I’m going deeper into myself, discovering more of who I am, and realizing how subtle the false beliefs of the subconscious are yet to uncover. It’s a wonderful journey worth taking, and since I’ve been on it for twenty-five years, it’s nice to allow my kids to continue with their journey into self-awareness as I go deeper into mine. I no longer have to assist them in their process and integration as much which allows me more space, time, and energy to discover and practice more of my gifts.
Thanks for joining me on the journey! Let me know what types of transitions with motherhood you’ve gone through.
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